Never Change, but Never Stay the Same

Originally posted on April 8, 2021.

It’s been 227 days since I celebrated my 10-year leg-iversary and since I quoted Taylor Swift then, I may as well keep the theme going and quote her today — also, I’m stoked as f–k for the drop of Fearless (Taylor’s Version) tonight 💫

She once said, “I’ll never change, but I’ll never stay the same either.” I resonate with this a lot because, during those 227 days, I did change — both physically and mentally. I had no idea going into it the different person I would become by April 8 — the Chandler that walked into Sinai Hospital on August 24, 2010, was a different Chandler on that April 8, 2011 — I would say she was more fearless than before (and is even more so today) 💛

In a 2014 interview with The Baltimore Sun, I said, “I’m the same person, but taller.” And maybe then, I did feel that way, but today, I know I’m not the same person — I did change, but I’m also very much the same ✨

I think I’ve always been the same, but when I was finally in the body that I always felt I was supposed to be in, everyone else saw a change, whereas I felt the same as I’d ever been — but different. I’m physically different now on the outside, but this is how I’ve always imagined myself on the inside — it’s okay to change, and it’s also okay to stay the same 🌻